Every time we are able to go to church on a Sunday as family, I feel blessed. We have been on and off with regards to going to church. Blame it to second collections. We just cannot understand very well where the church’s funds go. Ok. Maybe we do. Let’s just say that asking money the wrong way and for the wrong purpose irks us. Won’t you feel the same?
Anyway, so we attended church last Sunday. And as I say my prayer after communion, I found myself teary-eyed. I just feel so blessed and I am eternally thankful for that.
This first quarter of the year has been a pretty challenging when it comes to our expenditure. There is so much to pay and every time we just paid something, another will come and another. Thankfully, a blessing came and I believe, that is what we have been using.
I want to freak out. I want to be stressed. Without my hubby’s work, I will sure not be able to provide for my children’s needs. I told my hubby how thankful I am for he is the best provider (next to God, of course). He is not complaining but I know he thinks about our finances a lot, specially that we really want to stop renting a house. I want to help in the money matters but I am so doubtful of myself if I can work part-time here at home. What job will I take? Can I do it while the girls are here? Will I be able to juggle work and being a hands-on mom? Surely, I do not want to hand the kids to our helper most of the time. Does that mean I have to work at night till morning? And if they wake up, I cannot go to sleep, right?
Lord, help me discern. Show me your way and help me obey your plans. Amen.