family matters – Page 33

Morning Thinking

We are back in Las Pinas. I think we’re going to stay there for two weeks. It has been a while you know. The last time I saw my family was in June 23 when Ayex had her usual check up and vaccination.

The agreement was, we will stay in each place for a month. We went back to QC last June 4 in time for the opening of classes. That means we should have been back to Las Pinas since July 4. I told my husband that it is fine with me if we stay a bit longer in QC since my sister-in-law is leaving for US in August. I want her to enjoy Ayex as much as she can because they will not be seeing each other for a long time.

Las Pinas is very far from where we both work. I understand that and I am prepared to commute despite the fact that rainy season had started. However, he decided to bring the car this morning. And all these started when we got stuck in the long traffic in Coastal Road.

We took Coastal Road because we thought the traffic is not heavy according to my brother. When hubby saw a queue of cars piling near the toll gate, he frowned. We did not like it at all. Much more when we saw lots of red lights after we paid the toll. Then, he said something like “Mommy, malayo talaga tayo pag dito eh. Di rin maganda kung laging late, lalo na ngayon magiging project manager ka na.” I just said “Ano gusto mo balik na tayo ng QC?” I did not say anything after that. I kept quiet with different things running in my mind.

If we are to stay in QC (no more going home to LP every other month), then it would not be fair to my family. They would have to travel from LP to QC if they would want to see Ayex. My mom did that before and I did not liked it.
If we really want to stop staying from one place to another, why not just have a place of our own? If we want to visit our families, we can do that on weekends.
It is not a question of “Can they take care of Ayex?”. It is more of to give both families a chance to spend ample time with Ayex. It hurt me when Ayex cried yesterday upon arriving in LP for no reason at all. Maybe because she cannot recognize her Tita Gabby and Tita Tonette.

**There is really so much more. I just do not want to think about them anymore. But you know, this is becoming a problem. Why not share with me your thoughts so we can finally resolve this. Come to think of it, don’t you see that I am trying to be a good wife and in-law here. 🙁

Many Firsts with Ayex

This is our very first summer with Ayex around. I must say, this is one of those summer days that I totally enjoyed!

It’s Black Saturday and we’re at Pagudpod, San Fernando, La Union.

We’re on our way to Luciana, Laguna to attend a semi family reunion. It was quite traffic due to campaigning politicians and I was fixing something on the passenger seat so Ayex was with Daddy.

After Ayex took a dip at the pool in Graceland, Tayabas, Quezon. This is actually her first time.

Lola and Ayex were waiting for Mommy who was happily swimming by herself.

My first time to swim after I got pregnant and gave birth. My last was August 20, 2006. I think.. 😉

Our first trip to Festival Mall, Alabang. We’re in a carousel.

Mommy, Daddy and Ayex in the carousel. 🙂

Ayex’s second swimming outing, this time with my family in Villa Buenaflor, Tanza, Cavite.

My sister, Toni, has been telling me to buy Ayex her own shades but I was hesitant. I figured out that she might remove it and throw it away. I still haven’t bought her one.

Ayex in her own lifebuoy. She really enjoys being in the water.

Ayex and the whole gang. Whenever we’re in LP, all these peeps take care of her.

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I know this is just the first. There will be more to come. 🙂

Update – Part 3

This post is all about my post-partum days…

When I was discharge from the hospital after I gave birth to Ayex, we went home to QC instead of LP. This is due to the old belief kung san ititira ang baby, dun xa dapat una iuwi.

Anyways, so there. I was in QC with my new born, my mom and in-laws, my hubby still in China. The first few days was ultra difficult because of too many reasons some of which are:

I can’t get my milk out so we continued to feed Ayex with formula though I let her suckle first. They said that my hubby should help me with it but as I said, he’s in China.
I miss my husband. I felt that I was going through a very difficult situation in my life and I need him by my side but he’s not there. There would be times that I just cry because I remember that he is away and will not be back tomorrow or the next day.
I felt helpless. I grew up very independent. I never got hospitalized before. When I was sick, I took care of myself. I had to evercome a lot of emotions after giving birth. I was never used to people taking care of every single thing that I need. And since I was helpless, I had no choice but to accept whatever it is that was offered to me even if meant I was being over cared for (literally).

There’s actually so much more. However, since this post is super delayed, I can’t remember those other things that I used to worry about or those things that made me cry randomly. My mom said, it’s normal, it happens. But I felt mine was different.

When my hubby arrived from China, I thought things would start to get better. We’re already in LP where the environment became more conducive for a recovering person like me. I was wrong. I was happy that my hubby is back. However, after a few days, it seemed that we had a problem. And I was correct. Good thing that I had the gut to ask why. I don’t know why is it that I’m not good at that. Well, maybe because I hate people to see me cry, specially my family. I don’t to be asked why am I crying.

So we talked. He was overwhelmed that we were two when he left and when he came back we were already three. Before I was taking care of him only but now, I was taking care of the baby, not him. We were able to discuss the so many wrong feelings that we both have. It’s funny because we were both crying. At the end of everything, we’re back to normal.