what is so happy about this day? nothing…. geeezzzz, im so bitter…. im sooooooooooo bitter…. and i hate it… i definitely hate….. i really hate it!!!!!
i should have not expected that he will not be able to read that late text last night. i should have not planned of picking him up from his office. i should have not thought of preparing breakfast for him tomorrow as well as his lunch…
i just hate this… it sucks you know… i missed him so much and im doing everything so that i can spend time with him… well, i guess it’s one of those frustrating days again…
i wish this day will reach its end soon… i wish it’s already the next day…. i wish i’ll learn how not to expect too much so i can spare myself from frustrations like this…. i just hate it….
i really really hate this….
what a day!!!
I hate this day because of the following:
- I woke up early but I wasn’t able to jog. Why? Because I was too tired last night and because I of this, I cannot bring myself to get up and prepare. Why was I too tired last night? So much work and so much thinking of you.
- I don’t have good food to eat. This is actually my fault. I knew that i already ran out of cereals but then I didn’t bother to buy one for myself. And guess what I had for breakfast? SolutionBank requests and a hot solution! Whew! On a side note, while I was doing these, I was still able to prepare a nice tuna cheese sandwich for myself plus a glass of fresh milk. 😉
- We can’t post the hot solution right away. There was something wrong with the system. Good thing, after having a triple layer of tuna cheese sandwich for lunch, may brain worked! Finally, we were able to post the hot solution.
- We had to tag 122 solutions with metadata! Another rush of metadata! We finished at 6pm.
- All these times, I didn’t received any text from you. No instant messages, no text messages, no call, no anything! It sucks big time! Geeezzzz, paranoia attack gain! But look at me, I’m so stressed. I’m so swamped! I’m waiting for you! But you’re out there, somewhere I don’t know! Maybe I shouldn’t care anymore! I just hate you right now!
- Stress is all over the place! I even shouted at my younger sister! Arrrrggggg, I hate this day so much!!!!!!
adjusting
This week is the start of all the new things that are about to happen. He’s now connected with another company. A company that is different with mine. So?
It means a lot to me. Weekend for the two of us was not a very nice weekend. I was starting to feel sick and he was starting to recover from his bad colds last friday. Because of this, we were not able to see each other. It felt bad. I really wanted to see him and be with him.. coz I know when I get to the office last Monday, I wont be seeing him around anymore. No more 1 hour break with each other.
I missed him so much. I know he felt bad when I told him I got an urgent meeting.. But deep inside me, I really wanted to see him. I left my work for him. And no regrets at all. He was so gorgeous when I saw him. A totaly new look. 🙂
Now, it’s been a day or two. I haven’t seen him. I missed him. I miss all the things when he used to be here. I know right now he’s so busy adjusting with the new workplace he got. And I should be adjusting with that too. I know I am. I’ll get by. This is a phrase I’ve learned how to deal with.
Schedules will be hectic. Will definitely see each other less. Will be tired due to work most of the time. But I know we can go through these. We’ll go through these together. I’ll always stand by your side. Always remember that.