i just wanna let this out.
i had a great weekend! i went out friday night and didn’t went home. the next day, i spent my morning at the badminton court with my personal trainor. that’s my bebe, raymond ;). after two hours of sweating and playing badminton, we went to greenhills. it was our day and we want to make the most of it.
we had a sumptuous lunch at grilla. (i want to commend their branch in greenhills. they got really reasonably prized foods and the people are very courteous and always happy to serve! they never talked to us without a smile on their face!) i was glad he allowed me to ate bagoong (with kare kare) even if i was not suppose to have bagoong. we played finger wrestling while waiting for our food. however, my hands are still tired because of the badminton and i don’t want to keep on losing the game so i said i don’t want to play anymore. heheheh… after eating lunch, we went shopping….
yeah!!! at last, i was able to go shopping! i was able to buy things for myself for the longest time! hehehheh!!! no need to elaborate what i bought here… 😉 we left greenhills by 5:30 pm and was able to reach our place by 7 (at least that’s what i remember).
my mom prepared macaroni and we bought chocolate caramel cake because my sister was a dean’s lister! (mana sa ate) hehehheh… and there it started…. he called me SIOPEE (because my face is becoming something like a SIOPAO)… and everybody was now calling me like that….
personally, i don’t know if i was just becoming hypersensitive or what… i wasn’t minding it before.. but from time to time, i get a little depressed because i know i was gaining weight; my tummy and face are getting bigger…. i can’t wear my favorite pants anymore… and them calling me siopee is like adding salt to the wound… oh, the hypersensitive me… there… im done…
huling hirit
sa totoo lang, until this moment na malapit na akong umuwi, umaasa pa rin ako na sasabihin mo sa’kin, “be san tayo meet?” pero i guess i need to give up now. there’s no surprise today ija…. he’s not joking you. he’s telling the truth that he won’t be able to make it and you have to accept it…. so pls, do so….
there’s always next time… kaya lang this time will never be the same next time and i gotta deal with it…. kaya ko ito… kaya ko ito… promise…
i’ll be fine…. di ito dapat sumabay sa mga stress ko sa office. if he’s not there then he is not there. actually, iniisip ko na lang rin, this is actually nice in some way. kasi he’s not spoiling me. he reminds me that there would really be times that in times of important family gatherings, he will not be there. and i gotta accept it….
kaya ko ito… back to work na….
why is it that i don’t feel like it’s friday
my mind is processing like hell! i don’t like this. really i don’t…
i never got a text from you this morning. i was thinking you might be mad at me coz it was already very late when i got home last night. when i got online, i saw you there. but there were no offline messages… i popped you but i didn’t received any reply. i texted you. you replied and you told me you popped me already… then i saw your pops…. i miss you so much…
you asked me about my allergies because it became a part of your family’s conversation last night. and it went on and on and on… i know you are just being concerned… but you know, i get this very weird feeling… this is where my brain processed as if i don’t have other stuffs to think of again…. and i hate it… i hate what my brain is thinking of…. my brain was thinking if you were mad at me because i didn’t told you i had such conditions. my brain is thinking you are changing your mind. my brain is thinking you are thinking of something else…
geeeeezzzzzzz, here’s my old problem again…. my brain thinks too much… it thinks of things i knew never exist.. it thinks of situations that i’m not even sure will happen or is happening.. my brain thinks too much that it makes me break down a little… my brain thinks to much that i wanted to go home and sulk all day… my brain thinks too much that i feel like i’m losing everything important that i got… my brain thinks too much that it makes me feel im losing you….
you are not talking to me because you are busy and i told you that i’m not feeling well… but deep inside i just wanted to be with you… i wanted to be beside you… i want you to comfort me.. i want you to tell me how much i mean to you.. i want you to tell me to stop thinking of things that my brain is thinking of because they will not happen and they are not true… i want to be with you….
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