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Many Firsts with Ayex

This is our very first summer with Ayex around. I must say, this is one of those summer days that I totally enjoyed!

It’s Black Saturday and we’re at Pagudpod, San Fernando, La Union.

We’re on our way to Luciana, Laguna to attend a semi family reunion. It was quite traffic due to campaigning politicians and I was fixing something on the passenger seat so Ayex was with Daddy.

After Ayex took a dip at the pool in Graceland, Tayabas, Quezon. This is actually her first time.

Lola and Ayex were waiting for Mommy who was happily swimming by herself.

My first time to swim after I got pregnant and gave birth. My last was August 20, 2006. I think.. 😉

Our first trip to Festival Mall, Alabang. We’re in a carousel.

Mommy, Daddy and Ayex in the carousel. 🙂

Ayex’s second swimming outing, this time with my family in Villa Buenaflor, Tanza, Cavite.

My sister, Toni, has been telling me to buy Ayex her own shades but I was hesitant. I figured out that she might remove it and throw it away. I still haven’t bought her one.

Ayex in her own lifebuoy. She really enjoys being in the water.

Ayex and the whole gang. Whenever we’re in LP, all these peeps take care of her.

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I know this is just the first. There will be more to come. 🙂

Update – Part 3

This post is all about my post-partum days…

When I was discharge from the hospital after I gave birth to Ayex, we went home to QC instead of LP. This is due to the old belief kung san ititira ang baby, dun xa dapat una iuwi.

Anyways, so there. I was in QC with my new born, my mom and in-laws, my hubby still in China. The first few days was ultra difficult because of too many reasons some of which are:

I can’t get my milk out so we continued to feed Ayex with formula though I let her suckle first. They said that my hubby should help me with it but as I said, he’s in China.
I miss my husband. I felt that I was going through a very difficult situation in my life and I need him by my side but he’s not there. There would be times that I just cry because I remember that he is away and will not be back tomorrow or the next day.
I felt helpless. I grew up very independent. I never got hospitalized before. When I was sick, I took care of myself. I had to evercome a lot of emotions after giving birth. I was never used to people taking care of every single thing that I need. And since I was helpless, I had no choice but to accept whatever it is that was offered to me even if meant I was being over cared for (literally).

There’s actually so much more. However, since this post is super delayed, I can’t remember those other things that I used to worry about or those things that made me cry randomly. My mom said, it’s normal, it happens. But I felt mine was different.

When my hubby arrived from China, I thought things would start to get better. We’re already in LP where the environment became more conducive for a recovering person like me. I was wrong. I was happy that my hubby is back. However, after a few days, it seemed that we had a problem. And I was correct. Good thing that I had the gut to ask why. I don’t know why is it that I’m not good at that. Well, maybe because I hate people to see me cry, specially my family. I don’t to be asked why am I crying.

So we talked. He was overwhelmed that we were two when he left and when he came back we were already three. Before I was taking care of him only but now, I was taking care of the baby, not him. We were able to discuss the so many wrong feelings that we both have. It’s funny because we were both crying. At the end of everything, we’re back to normal.

too many bad news happening

I haven’t finished the other parts of my update, which is still sitting in my drafts. Now I am here to write about something else. Something that is totally unexpected.

I mentioned in my first update that I’m quite swamped because my PKM just resigned. Some time last week, my team leader told me and Therese that Bong, our guy content editor also resigned to pursue personal goals. And today, after eating lunch, I had another bad news.

My routine during lunch time is to eat lunch and do my mommy thing afterwards. While I was doing my mommy thing, another officemate, Sel, knocked in the bathroom to check if it was me. She said, Nikki alam mo na? I can sense in her voice that it was some kind of a bad news. Earlier, I read an email from my TL where she said she has another news. But I never thought that it would be a bad one. After Sel knocked, she left and said that she’ll just wait for me. I was beginning to be tensed. I heard Therese call my name from the pantry (it’s right outside the bathroom). So I went out and asked her was is going on. Bimbo is already resigned.

Bimbo has been my manager since I entered Trend. I was a scholar back then and then became an intern then an employee. Our life before was simple but it evolved drastically over the past two years.

Why didn’t I get a feeling of this happening when he asked me how do I find his newly cleaned cube? It just felt terrible. As Therese said, it’s 3 in a row. He and I are the remaining members of the old team and on May 18, it would just be me.

I should not have anything against this. I know Bimbo have contributed a lot to Trend’s KM Team and he did a great job as the support portal manager. It just feel sad. I’m still speechless.