Battling Chaos

In as much as I wanted to greet all of you a Happy Easter in a loud and happy manner, I do not feel that way. I have been missing in the blogging world for a week now and while I remember I have to update this blog, I do not find the urge to do so. 🙁 Well, there was the Holy Week but after that, I still cannot find my writing mojo. Maybe because I feel sad and I feel that my our life is chaotic now.

Last Black Saturday afternoon, we received a news through text message that my paternal grandmother is already dead. My father and his siblings are expecting this to happen. My Nanay Isay is already old and weak and has been like that for the past year or two. I know it will come but I wish I could have visited her more before she died. I have been planning to make time for it but I have so many excuses.

My mom and I were not able to attend the Easter Vigil. By 12:06am of Sunday, I received a call. It was my brother, asking us to pick him up because the jeepney he was riding home got into an accident and his ear is injured. My brother was lucky for a few reasons: 1) I forgot to put my phone on silent mode and I was able to take his call; 2) We are here and LP and hubby is here to drive and assist him; 3) Only his ear was injured and nothing more serious happened to him. It was 2am when they got back.

When it rains, it pours. That is also true for negative vibes. Come Sunday morning, my youngest sister cannot get out of bed and was chilling. She has high fever and has severe back pains. Hubby who has not sleep well yet, together with my mom, brought her to the hospital. After three hours of staying in the emergency room, she was discharged. She was ok when they got home. She ate a little and slept. When I came back from church, she has very very high fever again and was rushed to the hospital once more.

My sister is still confined at the hospital but we also have a wake to go to so we can give final tribute to Nanay Isay. Without minding our lack of sleep, hubby drove us down south. When we arrived, there were just my uncles. My cousins are not yet there for they have work. The wake was quiet. There was nothing to do except tell stories to each other. I asked one of my uncles if there will be card playing games. He said he doesn’t know a lot of card games, only pusoy, tongits and this new Free Bet game, I forgot what it is called exactly. But just as we were about to start, some ladies came and offered prayer (padasal) for Nanay Isay. After that, we went home so our children can rest.

Today, we visited my sister at the hospital. Her temperature still goes up and down. She looks fine but she is still on dextrose. Her lab results are not yet out. She is complaining that her hand where the dextrose is already hurts. There is nothing she can do except sleep and eat. Thankfully, she is now using my other sister’s phone plan where she has 12 hours free Internet usage. When she is tired of sleeping, she checks her email and even Facebook! And oh, due to boredom, she has learned to play Online Casino! I told her that is ok so she can get complete rest. But she wants to go home soon. Actually that is what all of us want.

I pray that all this chaos will be over soon and that nothing else will follow. We still have a lot to do: find a house and ballet recitals. So much to do and I feel exhausted already!