I am my monstrous self again lately. I get irritated easily and a lot. It does not help at all that the girls are becoming smarter each day that they do stuff that adds insult to the injury. There are times when Maxyn will not eat properly and when I start eating, she would cling to me. She also keeps on climbing on things, I feel like I will have a heart attack if she falls. Ayex will tell me how to do things which I perfectly know. She answers back and reasons out like an adult. I know these are small things but they keep on happening recently and they are driving me nuts already. I feel sad and guilty about what is happening. I really hope my patient self will come soon to redeem me. Lord, help me.