I believe that Ayex is a good girl. It just so happens that she wants our full attention when we’re around since this only happens during weekends. And we do everything to make that happen. We do our best to focus our attention to her even when we have other things to mind apart from her.
But there are times when she really gets to our nerves being the terrible two that she is. Last night was one of them.
She has not eaten a decent meal the whole day. At Timezone Trinoma, she kept on insisting at playing at those that have candies as the prizes. She even want to swipe the power card herself (such a techie little kid!)! She didn’t want to walk and asked to be carried most of the time. I’m just thankful that she behaved well while she had her hair cut.
At home, after I fixed our things from our LP weekend stay, I called her for dinner. As I arrange her high-chair she came out running and shouting at the same time. She was insisting that she doesn’t want to eat and I should return her chair. She is crying and shouting! I forced her to sit in her high chair and told her that I’ll only feed her milk after she has eaten her dinner. After 3 spoons of rice, she stood up and faced the TV. We asked her thrice to sit down again and finish her food. She began to cry again, took some rice from her plate and threw it in the table. That was it!
After that, I took her from the chair, brought her inside our room and locked it! I swear, I was so hungry but I couldn’t eat because I can hear her loud cry. Hindi marunong matakot si Ayex kahit kanino! And I fear that she’ll be like that forever! I locked her in the room twice. On the second time, she stopped crying while I talk to her from the outside.
I was expecting to have the usual mommy-guilt I feel after scolding her. I didn’t for the first time. It was probably an affirmation that I was right. I have to discipline her myself. And I can do that without spanking. I don’t want to instill fear to her, I just want her to be disciplined.