my mind is processing like hell! i don’t like this. really i don’t…
i never got a text from you this morning. i was thinking you might be mad at me coz it was already very late when i got home last night. when i got online, i saw you there. but there were no offline messages… i popped you but i didn’t received any reply. i texted you. you replied and you told me you popped me already… then i saw your pops…. i miss you so much…
you asked me about my allergies because it became a part of your family’s conversation last night. and it went on and on and on… i know you are just being concerned… but you know, i get this very weird feeling… this is where my brain processed as if i don’t have other stuffs to think of again…. and i hate it… i hate what my brain is thinking of…. my brain was thinking if you were mad at me because i didn’t told you i had such conditions. my brain is thinking you are changing your mind. my brain is thinking you are thinking of something else…
geeeeezzzzzzz, here’s my old problem again…. my brain thinks too much… it thinks of things i knew never exist.. it thinks of situations that i’m not even sure will happen or is happening.. my brain thinks too much that it makes me break down a little… my brain thinks to much that i wanted to go home and sulk all day… my brain thinks too much that i feel like i’m losing everything important that i got… my brain thinks too much that it makes me feel im losing you….
you are not talking to me because you are busy and i told you that i’m not feeling well… but deep inside i just wanted to be with you… i wanted to be beside you… i want you to comfort me.. i want you to tell me how much i mean to you.. i want you to tell me to stop thinking of things that my brain is thinking of because they will not happen and they are not true… i want to be with you….
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